Apparently I’m not Superwoman

I know, what a shocker to me too.  I thought with all my cavewoman ways and the fact that I haven’t had so much as a common cold in 3 1/2 years that I had become indestructible.

But reality hits. Started with a scratchy throat…the usual…so I jacked up the nutrient dense foods and extra vitamins C, D and Echinacea.  Except it turns out I have strep which equals the worst sore throat ever! It’s been 4 days and I can’t eat and can’t barely drink…it’s like shards of glass when I swallow even water. Antibiotics aren’t kicking in yet. I’m frustrated.  Ear ache, teeth hurt, swollen glands and tired all the time…how fun!

Ensure – surely not good for you

I tried the usual pain narcotics like Vicodin, but hate the goofy useless feeling I get.  A friend got me a case of Ensure…I drank it out of desperation for some calories and nutrition, but it made me feel bad and then I looked at the ingredients…it’s a bottle of sugar and soy with I guess a One-A-Day inside. I really appreciate her going out of her way to get it, but I have to get some nutrition in my body. So I’m having smoothies with protein powder and fruit…no, still not Paleo, but it’s the only thing that’s giving me some calories and making me feel a little human…Smoothie King and Bolthouse!  Last night I tried some ground beef with eggs all chopped up really small and I couldn’t eat it…well now I have leftovers I’ll try again later.  Wishing I had some bone broth or some kind of healthy soup prepared for times like this.  I’m 3 pounds down so far and I don’t want to lose any weight.  I’ll need ankle weights to hold me down soon!

Much better choices!

Although I’m still wallowing in my pity party out of frustration…I realized I have to let the healing run its course or find a different doctor, different medicine or some miracle shot. I am all for it right now.  I am hungry.  I am not Superwoman. I can’t get well in a couple of days, it could take a few more days or a couple of weeks and I just have to take one step at a time.  Back to snuggling up with the dogs and cats on the couch and watching football; back to texting and having one-sided phone conversations…waiting because I know tomorrow will be a much better day.

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